Tonight the Lord wrecked me. I have been undone by Him the Last 2 days. I long to see His face. To gaze upon His beauty. He is the most beautiful think possibly imaginable. His beauty is unfathomable. I have just been fervently praying to see Him. David put my heart into perfect words...It seems as though He had the same encounter:
Oh God You are my God, earnestly I seek You; my soul thirsts for You in a dry and weary land where there is no water. I have seen You in the Sanctuary and Beheld Your power and Your glory. Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You. I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods, with singing lips, my mouth will praise You. On my bed I remember You; I think of You through the watches of the night. Because You are my help I sing in the shadow of Your wings. My soul clings to You, Your right hand upholds me. Psalm 63:1-9.
Tonight during worship I had a beautiful encounter with Jesus. I was crying the entire service, didn't listen to the message, didn't participate in ministry, the Lord was doing a different work in me. Tears flowed down my cheeks at just the thought of my King. I sang for a good 30 minutes, I love You, I love You, I love You. Over and Over and Over again. The words were barely able to leave my mouth because at this point I was sobbing. The next moment the Lord told me to hold out my hands (they were in my pockets) He said, Hold out your hands, I have something to give you. So I held out my hands, palms flat, fingers stretched out. I saw the Lord in front of me, and He put His hands in my hands. I looked down at my hands and my fingers had closed in, as one's hands do when someone holds their hand. I didn't even know my fingers did that. I didn't move them myself. King Jesus was holding my Hands. Then I sobbed for the next 4 hours. Actually....I've been crying typing this blog. Ask Jesus to be next to you. Desire Him. Seek Him. Love Him. His presence is the best gift ever given. Thank You Abba. Thank You for Your gift tonight. I want nothing more than to dwell in Your courts gazing on the beautiful face of my King of Kings. I love You, I love You, I love You.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
He is Worthy
7/9
Jesus, I need you right now. I feel inadequate. I look around and see everyone moved. I have been moved. I was more than moved yesterday, but today I'm not. Why? How could such a magnificent amazing God not move me. I feel like something is wrong with me when I'm not moved. I didn't feel like worshiping even though the prayer set was interceding for what my heart burns for- Revival in America. I pray that you break me of a lazy spirit. You are worth my effort. Please give me breakthrough tonight as I labor in the prayer room. Give me the passion to make it till 6am. Give me the grace to fight today Lord.
Even through all of this, the Lord is really teaching me that sometimes I won't feel it. Sometimes I'm too tired, or too lazy or honestly just don't feel like doing Jesus stuff, but something that He is really teaching me is that all those things don't matter. You aren't always going to feel like you're on the mountain top. You're not always going to feel like He is sitting right next to you. You aren't always going to be dancing or shouting or crying. Sometimes you feel nothing. But you press in, because He is the King of Kings and He is worthy. You do it anyways, because He deserves everything. We cant do anything apart from Him. Right now I feel like I don't have anything. No strength, no overwhelming mercy. Just Him. And He is enough.
7/10
The Lord is really teaching me what consecration is. To be Wholly and Holy set apart for Him. All throughout the bible we see examples of amazing people who chose not to eat choice foods, or vowed not to drink wine...What is defiling your temple, keeping it from truly being consecrated to the Lord. Is it thoughts? Actions? Video Games? Actually certain foods or drugs or alcohol? Ask the Holy spirit what it is. He is worthy of our effort. He is worth our sacrifice. He is worthy of all of us.
Jesus, I need you right now. I feel inadequate. I look around and see everyone moved. I have been moved. I was more than moved yesterday, but today I'm not. Why? How could such a magnificent amazing God not move me. I feel like something is wrong with me when I'm not moved. I didn't feel like worshiping even though the prayer set was interceding for what my heart burns for- Revival in America. I pray that you break me of a lazy spirit. You are worth my effort. Please give me breakthrough tonight as I labor in the prayer room. Give me the passion to make it till 6am. Give me the grace to fight today Lord.
Even through all of this, the Lord is really teaching me that sometimes I won't feel it. Sometimes I'm too tired, or too lazy or honestly just don't feel like doing Jesus stuff, but something that He is really teaching me is that all those things don't matter. You aren't always going to feel like you're on the mountain top. You're not always going to feel like He is sitting right next to you. You aren't always going to be dancing or shouting or crying. Sometimes you feel nothing. But you press in, because He is the King of Kings and He is worthy. You do it anyways, because He deserves everything. We cant do anything apart from Him. Right now I feel like I don't have anything. No strength, no overwhelming mercy. Just Him. And He is enough.
7/10
The Lord is really teaching me what consecration is. To be Wholly and Holy set apart for Him. All throughout the bible we see examples of amazing people who chose not to eat choice foods, or vowed not to drink wine...What is defiling your temple, keeping it from truly being consecrated to the Lord. Is it thoughts? Actions? Video Games? Actually certain foods or drugs or alcohol? Ask the Holy spirit what it is. He is worthy of our effort. He is worth our sacrifice. He is worthy of all of us.
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